Hey, LL faithful! Who, I’ve come to learn is my cousin Pat. (hi!)

Graduate School (round two) is here, and I’m off and running, stumbling, crawling.

Here are the things I’ve learned so far:

  • For me, making the transition from faculty member/teacher/professional back to student was five times harder than my move from student to professional.
  • Being a good student is never going to come naturally to me. I am going to have to fight procrastination and my own brilliant attempts at self sabotage.
  • I’m going to do those things, because my work is important and my ideas are worth exploring.
  • I won’t feel like that ↑ all or even most of the time.
  • Spending time with my students will remind me of all of that.
  • Because as much as we complain about kids these days/millennials, how college kids now don’t have it 1/5 as rough as we did – PAPER INDICES!, REGISTRATION BY PAPER CARD/TELNET/PHONE! – they’re still working and learning things.
  • Seeing my students learn and being able to help in that process teaches me more than any years of school ever could.
  • But, school helps me with the methods to create and assess sustainable change and introduces me to new things/people/ideas.
  • So, even though I’m most likely going to limp across the finish line. I’m in it. Let’s do this.

*ok, I’ll probably sprint across, because if you’ve ever watched an amateur race of any length you’ve noticed that everyone kicks it up and sprints across the finish line. Even if they’ve walked the last 14 miles. So, I will sprint. In kick-ass shoes and unapologetically bright burnt-orange regalia.

After almost four years at the library, I’m heading out on a new path. I’ve always known that I wanted a Ph.D., but was rather burned out after my dual masters program. I am incredibly glad that I took a break – although working full time as a faculty member in a tenure-track library is not really a break. During my time at the library I got to interact with new people, new institutional cultures, and new ideas. It provided incredible opportunities for professional development, conference attendance, and personal growth. I will always be grateful for that funding to go to LILAC in Glasgow and R2 in Telluride – amazing conferences and incredible locations (pictures below). My amazing boss let me try out all kinds of new stuff and was awesome and supportive even through my not-so-successful programs which always resulted in life lessons.

My favorite part was/is working with students. They can be exhausting and frustrating, but we need to stay connected to them. They need to trust us and we need to trust them. Building and fostering those relationships was a key part of my work, and I am really going to miss the amazing young adults I met at my current institution. They’ve given me something to write my dissertation about though.

I have so many questions, so many things I want to explore, and am now able to take the time to devote myself fully to studying current situations and policies, finding areas where we’re excelling and where we can improve, and then fixing stuff. As a supporter and champion of feminist research methods and pedagogies – all my research needs to have practical/activist applications. Everything I do is a mashup of gender studies, information studies, and education. I’m really looking forward to seeing what these next few years bring and what my research actually ends up being. It’s a difficult process, and I do definitely have reservations and a few gut wrenching fears, but I’m excited. I’m ready to learn new things and get researching!

beautiful mossy forest

Hiking in the Central Highlands after LILAC

Kelvingrove Art Gallery and Museum

Kelvingrove Art Gallery and Museum – Glasgow

mountain lodge

I had to stay in this shack for the R2 Conference. It was torture (to leave).

Library Lea and a giant snake.

More from R2 – not only was it an insanely gorgeous setting, the conference was incredible and involved snake handling.

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